Over My Head

This load’s too heavy,
I’m not strong enough.
It’s not a physical load,
But a mental one,
Which requires just as much strength.
I’m in over my head.
Too many lies.
Too many secrets.
Too much hurt.
It’s a burden on my heart,
A pain in my soul,
A longing to be heard.
I’m in over my head,
Like a balloon about to pop.
I need to let it out,
Let it go,
Let it fly.
But the one person I need to talk to,
The one person that’ll make it better,
Slowly deflate my balloon,
Is out of reach.
Right in front of my fingertips,
But that’s not how I was raised.
I don’t go off on people.
I’m not supposed to complain,
I’m supposed to put their feeling first.
I’m in over my head,
And the one person that can help,
Is the one who’s drowning me.